The almost crippling fear
I have had this fear, for as long as I remember. Started when I was a kid, travelling from KL to Penang for holidays, to visit my granma and granpa. As we travelled the trunk roads..no mean feat, I must say, I would normally lie down on my dad’s fairly smelly volvo velvety (fake, me thinks) seat. As my ears touch the seat, I could hear the wheels turning and generally, the whole car moving. My fear was that I was so heavy, that my weight could actually break the car’s axle, hence, breaking the car into half, and hurtling me and my family unto the road.
Every single time, we make that trip to Penang… I just dreaded that. Perhaps it’s a very silly fear, but it has made me very anxious. Now, as a grown up, I still have that fear. If it’s just us five of us, travelling in our car..that would be fine. I would have no problems with it. The weight is all balanced out somehow. But, if there are guests… I would have to make sure they sat in their right places, or the car would be inbalanced, causing the axle to break, hence, breaking the car into half and hurtling me and my family unto the road.
Yes yes…bizarre, much. I really don’t know why I have this crazy anxious feeling in me..but I do. It doesn’t stop until all of us have safely reached our destination. To me..any additional person in the car, will just trigger it. I’m really doomed. I don’t think I can handle it much longer..as my inlaws are around, and we do take them everywhere. Yes..we have all reached our destinations safely..but what if, one day????!!!!!!!

